[EDIT – For obvious reasons, I’ve decided stop smoking cigarettes, so please excuse the irrational outbursts. I’ll probably learn a lot about which is harder, changing gender, or quitting smoking, haha!]
You know what, if I’m going to be honest, I have to go the whole way.
I spoke with a private gender support counsellor last week, and the appointment is a painful 4 weeks away, for one appointment then she is on holiday for three weeks. She said if I go to my GP and get referred to the gender identity clinic that I wouldn’t be able to work with her. Like I said before, it’s the nuclear option….it’s the eventual option, my question is with timing.
But damn, I can’t handle it? Surely I need to go to my doctor? What in blue heck is Real Life Experience?! I have to act in a gender specific way before I can be more gender specific?! Do I have to be a crazy dude in stubble and a dress and a false squeaky voice before they’ll believe me? If I decided I was the kind of girl who wore the exact same clothes…..and had a beard and a penis and a deep voice then who can tell me what I am?
I have to think about things like freezing my sperm. I’m literally the last in my family line and I’m essentially consigning it to the dustbin, where the fudge do I get the money to pay an annual rate for a technology not guaranteed to work! I guess it calls for a fertility test to begin with.
I really don’t know what is the best choice to make, I’ll have to wait either way, but I don’t want to have to wait six months to even get started on something I’m trying to do now.
Please advise lovely humans 😦
Where do you start with all this?! What am I doing?!?!?! Why!!!!!!!!!!!!!