gender, identity, transgender

Be Honest, seek advice.

[EDIT – For obvious reasons, I’ve decided stop smoking cigarettes, so please excuse the irrational outbursts.  I’ll probably learn a lot about which is harder, changing gender, or quitting smoking, haha!]

You know what, if I’m going to be honest, I have to go the whole way.

I spoke with a private gender support counsellor last week, and the appointment is a painful 4 weeks away, for one appointment then she is on holiday for three weeks.  She said if I go to my GP and get referred to the gender identity clinic that I wouldn’t be able to work with her.  Like I said before, it’s the nuclear option….it’s the eventual option, my question is with timing.

But damn, I can’t handle it?  Surely I need to go to my doctor?  What in blue heck is Real Life Experience?!  I have to act in a gender specific way before I can be more gender specific?!  Do I have to be a crazy dude in stubble and a dress and a false squeaky voice before they’ll believe me?  If I decided I was the kind of girl who wore the exact same clothes…..and had a beard and a penis and a deep voice then who can tell me what I am?

I have to think about things like freezing my sperm.  I’m literally the last in my family line and I’m essentially consigning it to the dustbin, where the fudge do I get the money to pay an annual rate for a technology not guaranteed to work!  I guess it calls for a fertility test to begin with.

I really don’t know what is the best choice to make, I’ll have to wait either way, but I don’t want to have to wait six months to even get started on something I’m trying to do now.

Please advise lovely humans 😦

Where do you start with all this?!  What am I doing?!?!?! Why!!!!!!!!!!!!!

gender, transgender

Screw it, this is me.

Fudge it, I get found out, I get found out.  This is me, the best I can do with no knowledge or experience.

Now billions can know the true me.  Please accept me!

Now billions can know the true me. Please accept me, or I will use my supposedly feminine mind-powers!

The glasses are cosmetic, I’m sure there are lots of other great tricks to one day turn that face into something I can like.

I feel like such a pervert, even though perversion and arousal have nothing to do with it.

It is taking no small amount of bravery to do this today.  So, what brave thing are you going to do in your life that you’ve been putting off? We all have something we need to confront sooner rather than later.

EDIT – I’ll go one step further.  Here’s me pretending to be a boy.


Laaa la la, I have no idea what I’m doing 😀